| The Lust for the light but only the stars By NWC_NightWolf |
| In this life so dark and gray i roam the earth with my mind astray. Searching for the light of day i sit in limbo for eturnity never knowing what my life might have been... would have been if it wasn't for this binding urge to drink the liquid of life and the fear of death from the suns rays. i sit in the darkness with only the stars as my blanket of hope. atleast in them may i see the light of the sun and not my ever lasting death. althou death as it is to me is already in my heart and keeps me here. i open my eyes to the darkness each night a pray on the simple lifes that may end at any time to keep me strong. i thirst for the life i once knew before this curse, my life with my family and the rays of the sun warming my face. i thirst for the tranquillity inside my heart for the ones i lost and have yet to meet in the next life. I sit and wate for my time to come where i shale die with honor and live again in peace with my self. I would give my last breath if i had one to be human again rather then nothing, i would give my life if it wasn't already taken. to feal the warmth of a day just one more time i would do any thing. A poem spoken to the skys by my sire runs threw my head as i sit here in the darkness with only the winds as a voice. "Damn me Father, for I must sin..." Four centuries of this damned immortality Yet, I did not ask to be made. Why? I will never again feel your sun upon my face Or the comfort of a grave I am not alive and I am not dead This is Hell on earth How can I possibly explain this eternal youth? When I can do nothing, but sit by As my loves grow old and wither And with each of them, take a fragment of my heart And prolong this endless winder It is October's perpetual agony It is the shadow realm With every victim I pray for my own death And as much as I love the night I curse the moon's eerie glow Tis bloodlust that drags me to forever The toxic rays of dawn that condemn me to limbo I am forced to dwell in grey Autumnal twilight I am suspended in dusk |