It has been more than a year since I started a remarkable relationship with the girl whom I have been waiting for so long. I could still remember back in the days where by I was really down and frustrated by the way people treated me. I felt lost and I need a guidance, just like a compass to direct the captain of a ship to prevend any unwanted incident to happen. I am a strong person with a strong character but at times I need someone beside me. I needed someone who could be with me all the time and correct me when I am wrong and enjoy the success with me. These are one of the dreams that I have thought of out of a relationship.

I pictured a wonderful relationship without any worried. I always think that worries are just a challenge to me. For this I am still standing firm on this matter. I never felt that there is a need for someone to commit suicide just like a recent case of where the doctor fell to his death with his girlfriend. I would have done so if I had not been through the tough times. I am out of the tough times. I struggle and survived. I managed to do so. It is really difficult but I did it. All these while I have been waiting for a girl who could take me as a whole. A girl who could understand my character and my needs. A kind and pleasant girl who is not too demanding unlike the one I had before.

A total lost to me but I learned the hard way. I don't want to go through all the pain and worries again. There should be a more perspective way involving myself in a relationship that last. I did not give up in looking for a suitable girl whom I want to spend my life time with her. I am not sure but the past two previous relationship I had was in a disaster. I think they don't understand me. I need someone who could take me as a whole and I would do that to her. I believe that for the past few years I have been learning and more prepared to love again. I don't want to be fooled again. I want certainty and affirmation. I know that it is unreasonable but I always believe that when I fall in love it would be forever. Otherwise I would not fall in love. This is my way of thinking.

To think of it, it is worth the wait. I have adopted the idea of 'never say die' as I was inspired by the legendary badminton Foo Kok Keong way back to 1992 where Malaysia won the Thomas Cup. It was very touching because at that very moment The Malaysian Thomas Cup team was at 2-2 with Indonesia. It was just amazing because being a senior player he had showed the spirit of sportmanship. He inspired me because under each and every circumstances, never say die. Never give up easily. Never give up in anything which could have easily within your reach. Even though it might be hard never give up easily. Never ever let go easily. That was the spirit in 1992 where Malaysian won the prestigious Thomas Cup. It was 'never give up' until the very last moment.

I love the girl whom I had been with more than a year. I would always be with her. I love her very much. There is much for us to explore deeper as time goes by. To think of it, I am really lucky. I have finally found someone who could take me as a whole. There is nobody but her. I thank the Lord for showing me the way. He is the greatest. Anyway there is a brighter day for the both of us. I will always love her. This is what I have been long waiting for. The girl whom I fell for. I'll be true to her forever. I need her really much as much as she needs me. Love her most... Take good care and I'll always be there for you... Now and forever...

There would be much more things that we could do together. Love would never fade away from us. We would always be together. We had to have the strength to go on. I would always be there for you sweetheart. Straight from my heart for you.Just for you only sweetheart. Take care always and remember that I'll be with you even though I am not physically there sometimes. It is more than words can say that could fully express my love for you sweetheart. Love you most...

With all my and soul,

My eternal love for you sweetheart...