Songs For The Ages

Songs For The Ages...

This is a section in which I'll post lyrics to songs that have an effect on me in some way...they always make me feel something when I hear them. There are VERY many that fall into this category, and I really don't think I'll be posting them all, but definitely some of the more "emotional" ones. Enjoy.

Last Dance

I'm so glad you came
I'm so glad you remembered to see how we're ending our last dance together
Expectant, too punctual, but prettier than ever
I really believed that this time it's forever

But older than me now, more constant, more real
And the fur and the mouth and the innocence
Turned to hair and contentment that hangs in a basement
A woman now standing where once there was only a girl

I'm so glad you came
I'm so glad you remembered the walking through walls in the heart of December
The blindness of happiness, of falling down laughing
And I really believed that this time was forever

But Christmas falls late now, flatter and colder
And never as bright as when we used to fall
All this in an instant before I can kiss you
A woman now standing where once there was only a girl

I'm so glad that you came
I'm so glad you remembered to see how we're ending our last dance together
Reluctantly, cautiously, but prettier than ever
I really believed that this time it's forever

But Christmas falls late now, flatter and colder
And never as bright as when we used to fall
And even if we drink I don't think we would kiss
In the way that we did when the woman was only a girl...

Porno Mouth

And I didn't want to be without you
And I can't think of anything without you

He's got a porno mouth
He's got a porno grin
He's got a porno mouth
He's got a porno grin
He's got porno within him

I watch the tv, realizing you're for me
And I watch my skin, watch my skin crawling
When I'm thinking of him
He's everything but beautiful

And you got everything you need
And you got everything but me

He's breathing my voice
He's inhaling my skin
He's breathing my voice
He's inhaling my skin
He's got me within him

I watch the tv, realizing you're for me
And I watch my skin, watch my skin crawling
And I watch my window, and I see all the people
And I watch my skin, watch my skin crawling
When I'm thinking of him
He's everything but beautiful

And he's everything but beautiful...

Single Phial

I have walked the earth so many times before your birth,
Today is only yesterday's tomorrow.
And as a Gardner in Eden it was I who sowed the seed then
I've come to reclaim this life you borrow.

Singing 'ring a ring o' rosies' for your final lullabye,
Have you any prayers to make before you wave your last goodbye?
I bring 'a pocket full o' posies' - lay a wreath to ease my guilt,
As the lights go out forever, not one drop of blood was spilt.

As yet unwritten history-
Once more I stride the lightning road
Identity a mystery-
My burden is Pandora's load.
Traversing endless centuries-
Disguised behind Death's lipless smile,
I hide that my intention is to pour this single phial.

I 'd have rather seen your face almost any other place
Still here we meet - always the way in this profession
And as I gaze into your eyes, I see the glimmer within dies,
From the moment I first make my dark confession.

How could I swear I would be there for you until your dying day,
Certain in the knowledge that it's not that far away?
So you leave me sitting here, bewildered as a new dead ghost,
While I try to justify destroying that which I love most.

The dark millenium is ending, final daze of the decayed
And a reign of tears is falling, it's the judgement eve parade.
Though I wash my hands a thousand times, still the guilt remains,
She stole my heart, I took her life,
And yet I never knew her name.

Out with a whimper, not with a bang...
And they all gathered round while the church bell rang...
Singing "bring out your dead they 'll stretch for miles,
To be bourne to their graves in single files..."

Lies

Your soul, a pit of stone
The depths I wish I could have known
Dangerous, black and full of spite
Thoughts of you fill my night
But now we lay naked on the floor
I'm lost, I'm drowning in your soul
I was searching for some answer in your eyes
I find malicious laughter and a love that has died

You are haunting my reality
Your lies are the only truth that I believe
You are haunting my reality
Now every time I think about you I die

Hatred runs through me marrow deep
I long to tear your eyes out in your sleep
This passion can lead to evil crimes
Do I kill you or do I choose to die?
Acid burn etched in my brain
Someone dies before I go insane
I was searching for some answer in your eyes
I find malicious laughter and a love that has died

Lies...

Soon now you'll be gone
I wish to God I could've known
I love you, I hate you every night
This longing for your soul has got me scared
But now we lay naked on the floor
I'm lost, I'm drowning in your soul
I was searching for some answer in your eyes
I find malicious laughter, hate, and lies, fucking lies...

Every You Every Me

Sucker love is Heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion's spent
My heart's a tart, your body's rent
My body's broken, yours is bent

Carve your name into my arm
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed
'Cos there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you...

Sucker love, a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse

In the shape of things to come
Too much poison come undone
'Cos there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you...

Sucker love is known to swing
Prone to cling and waste these things
Pucker up for Heaven's sake
There's never been so much at stake

I serve my head up on a plate
It's only comfort, calling late
'Cos there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you...

Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind

All alone in space and time
There's nothing here, but what's here's mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you...

A Moment Of Clarity

I thought of you tonight, in simple twists and turns
Incarcerated here, I'm handcuffed to your world
Your innocence is cruel, coquettish and arcane
But I need it all the same

I thought of you tonight, in silent seething heat
Through charred and damned desire, dark Eros wounding me
Your innocence is cruel, and your ass like Jesus' feet
Worth kissing, worth kissing

Give yourself to me, I share your need
Give yourself to me and come to me
Give yourself to me, I share your need
Give yourself to me, I share your need

I thought of you tonight, through blank and starving eyes
In this one moment of clarity, blink the darkness in my eyes
Your lips like bruised vulva, your ass like Jesus' feet
Worth kissing, give yourself to me

I thought of you tonight, in silent seething heat
Through charred and damned desire, dark Eros killing me
Your lips like bruised vulva, your ass like Jesus' feet
Worth kissing, worth kissing

Give yourself to me, I share your need
Give yourself to me, I share your need
Give yourself to me, I share your need
Give yourself to me, I share your need

Kiss me through your warming darkness, kiss me now so I can breathe
Kiss me once then I am leaving, kiss me once then kiss yourself goodbye

I thought of you tonight, in simple twists and turns
Incarcerated here, I'm handcuffed to this world...

Omerta

Up all night again
As for sleep, no comprende
I don't sleep 'cos sleep is the cousin of death
At least that's what Nas says
Sleep is a state of mind
And to know is to be on your way
I bought some bad drugs off these snotty little rave kids I met
And shuffled off to Buffalo

If I have love, then I hide it
And the people that I hide it from
Have helped me to deny that it's not enough
To show you care
You gotta take on every double cross and every double dare
I swear to you

Unchain your mind, become divine
Surrender, surrender my love
And get on down here and say it with me

Sick and tired again
Fucked and wired again
It's all so beautiful
Sounds like a stone temple sob story to me
If I'm on your mind again
You must be tripping on some of that voodoo I've been throwing down
And when you're high
And lost in the clouds
Then you know it's time to get down again

Unchain your mind, become divine
Surrender, surrender my love
Get on down here and say it with me
Unchain your mind, become divine
Surrender, surrender to me
And get on down here and sing it with me, child
And say yeah, yeah, yeah...

Open

I really don't know what I'm doing here
I really think I should've gone to bed tonight but
Just one drink
And there're some people to meet you
I think that you'll like them
I have to say we do
And I promise in less than an hour we will honestly go
Now why don't I just get you another
While you just say hello
Just say hello...

So I'm clutching it tight
Another glass in my hand
And my mouth and the smiles
Moving up as I stand up
Too close and too wide
And the smiles are too bright
And I breathe in too deep
And my head's getting light
But the air is getting heavier and it's closer
And I'm starting to sway
And the hands on all my shoulders don't have names
And they won't go away
So here I go
Here I go again...

Falling into strangers
And it's only just eleven
And I'm staring like a child
Until someone slips me heaven
And I take it on my knees
Just like a thousand times before
And I get transfixed
That fixed
And I'm just looking at the floor
Just looking at the floor
I look at the floor

And I'm starting to laugh
Like an animal in pain
And I've got blood on my hands
And I've got hands in my brain
And the first short retch
Leaves me gasping for more
And I stagger over screaming
On my way to the floor
And I'm back on my back
With the lights and the lies in my eyes
And the colour and the music's too loud
And my head's all the wrong size
So here I go
Here I go again...

I laugh and I jump
And I sing and I laugh
And I dance and I laugh
And I laugh and I laugh
And I can't seem to think
Where this is
Who I am
Why I'm keeping this going
Keep pouring it out
Keep pouring it down
And the way the rain comes down hard
That's the way I feel inside...

I can't take it anymore
This "it" I've become
This is it like I get
When my life's going numb
I just keep moving my mouth
I just keep moving my feet
I say I'm loving you to death
Like I'm losing my breath
And all the smiles that I wear
And all the games that I play
And all the drinks that I mix
And I drink until I'm sick
And all the faces that I make
And all the shapes that I throw
And all the people I meet
And all the words that I know
Makes me sick to the heart
I feel so tired...

And the way the rain comes down hard
That's how I feel inside...

Teachers

I met a woman long ago
Her hair the black that black can go
"Are you a teacher of the heart?"
Soft, she answered "no"
I met a girl across the sea
Her hair the gold that gold can be
"Are you a teacher of the heart?"
"Yes, but not for thee"

I met a man who lost his mind
In some lost place I had to find
"Follow me" the wise man said
But he walked behind
I walked into a hospital
Where none was sick and none was well
When at night the nurses left
I could not walk at all

Morning came
And then came noon
Dinner time, a scalpel blade
Lay beside my silver spoon
Some girls wander by mistake
Into the mess that scalpels make
"Are you the teachers of my heart?"
"We teach old hearts to break"

One morning I woke up alone
The hospital and the nurses gone
"Have I carved enough my lord?"
"Child, you are a bone"
I ate and ate and ate
And I did not miss a plate
"How much do these suppers cost?"
"We'll take it out in hate"

I spent my hatred every place
On every work, on every face
Someone gave me wishes
And I wished for an embrace
Several girls embraced me
Then I was embraced by men
"Is my passion perfect?"
"No, do it once again"

I was handsome, I was strong
I knew the words of every song
"Did my singing please you?"
"No, the words you sang were wrong"
"Who is it whom I address?
Who takes down what I confess?
Are you the teachers of my heart?"
"We teach old hearts to rest"

"Teachers are my lessons done?
I cannot do another one"
They laughed and laughed and said
"Well, child, are your lessons done?"

Bad Timing

Hey it's me, what a big surprise
Calling you up from a restaurant
Around the bend
I just got in from way up North
I'm aching tired now
And I could use a friend
I might be a fool
To think that you do
Want to see me again

It's been awhile since I talked to you
Nothing wrong
Just nothing ever goes as planned
Many times I thought I'd call
I didn't have your number in my hand
I know it's true
You'd never do
The same thing to me

I never meant to make you cry
And though I know I shouldn't call
It just reminds us of the cost
Of everything we've lost
Bad timing that's all

Maybe soon there'll come a day
When no more tears will fall
If we each forgive a little bit
And we both look back on it
As just bad timing that's all

We used to have so many plans
Something always seemed to turn out wrong
I never could catch up to you
Moving on and doing what you've done
I don't know why
The harder I try
The harder it comes

I never meant to make you cry
And though I know I shouldn't call
It just reminds us of the cost
Of everything we've lost
Bad timing that's all

Maybe soon there'll come a day
When no more tears will fall
If we each forgive a little bit
When we both look back on it
Just bad timing that's all...

Raining In Baltimore

The circus is falling down on its knees
The big top is crumbling down
It's raining in Baltimore, fifty miles east
Where you should be, no one's around

I need a phone call
I need a raincoat
I need a big love
I need a phone call

These train conversations are passing me by
And I don't have nothing to say
You get what you pay for
But I just had no intention of living this way

I need a phone call
I need a plane ride
I need a sunburn
I need a raincoat

And I get no answers
And I don't get no change
It's raining in Baltimore, baby
But everything else is the same

There's things I remember, and things I forget
I miss you...I guess that I should
Three thousand five hundred miles away
But what would you change if you could?

I need a phone call
Maybe I should buy a new car
I can always hear a freight train
If I listen real hard
And I wish it was a small world
Because I'm lonely for the big towns
I'd like to hear a little guitar
I think it's time to put the top down

I need a phone call
I need a raincoat...

Ungod

You don't understand this, I think you never did
Silently I search for a reason to exist
I've found a way to feel you, I feel so fucking old
Your're burning up inside me, but I feel so fucking cold

You are clutched tight in my fingers
You caress my skin so light
You are welling up inside me
You have finally freed yourself
You are flowing across my pale skin
You are running down my arm
You are salty as I taste you
I have finally made you warm
I have finally made you warm

You stare at me so silent, you stare at me so cold
I think you stare right through me, that stare has made me old
I've found a way to feel you, I feel so fucking old
You're burning up inside me, I feel so fucking cold

Take this...as an offering
Take this...as a sign
Take this...as an offering
How much can you take from...
How much can you take from me?
Take from me...

I sink into this darkness, I sink into this cold
This emptiness is calling, I've nothing left to lose
I've found a way to kill you, I feel so fucking cold
You're burning up inside me, I feel so fucking old

Take this...as an offering
Take this...as a sign
Take this...as an offering
How much can you take from...
How much can you take from...
Take this...as an offering
Take this...as a sign
Take this...as an offering
How much can you take from...
How much can you take from me?

This Time Of Night

We all feel the same
All pleasure and nothing to gain
I've known you from the start
I've grown used to your wooden heart
Now you know my name
You search your empty brain in vain
If you don't change your ways
You'll end up here with me unraised

Without you they'll never know
Without you my life won't flow
Without you they'll never show
Without you the night won't go
Without you I'm left alone
Without you I'm on my own
Without you I lay in pain
Without you I've gone insane

Now you must decide
What good's a lie when you've nothing to hide?
Maps they'll never show
They're dumb like you, they never know
It's time we said goodbye
Bury your head and silence your cry
Know the feel of pain
Join our world and play our game

Without you they'll never know
Without you my life won't grow
Without you they'll never show
Without you the night won't go
Without you I'm left alone
Without you I'm on my own
Without you my life's a waste
Just for you I left my place
Without you I'm left alone
Without you I'm on my own
Without you I lay here in pain
Without you I've gone insane

Whatever you may think of me
Don't ever take my dignity
Whatever you may do to me
Don't crucify my dignity...

The Good Life

When I look in the mirror
I can't believe what I see
Tell me who's that funky dude
Staring back at me?
Broken, beaten down
Can't even get around
Without an 'old man' cane
I fall and hit the ground
Shivering in the cold
Bitter and alone

Excuse the bitching
I shouldn't complain
I should have no feeling
Because feeling is pain
And everything I need
Is denied me
Everything I want
Is taken away from me
But who do I got to blame?
Nobody but me

And I don't wanna be an old man anymore
It's been a year or two since I was out on the floor
Shakin' booty, making sweet love all the night
It's time I got back to the good life
It's time I got back
It's time I got back
And I don't even know how I got off the track
I wanna go back

Screw this crap, I've had it
I ain't no 'Mr. Cool'
I'm a pig, I'm a dog
So excuse me if I drool
I ain't gonna hurt nobody
Ain't gonna cause a scene
Just need to admit that I want sugar in my tea
Hear me? Hear me? I want sugar in my tea

I wanna go back
I wanna go back
And I don't even know how I got off the track
It's time I got back
It's time I got back
And I don't even know how I got off the track
I wanna go back...

Kiss Off

I need someone, a person to talk to
Someone to care, to love
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
The situation gets rough and I start to panic
It's not enough, it's just a habit
Hey kid, you're sick
Well, darling, this is it

You can all just kiss off into the air
Behind my back I can see them stare
They'll hurt me bad, but I won't mind
They'll hurt me bad, they do it all the time

I hope you know that this will go down on your permanent record
Oh yeah?
Well, don't get so distressed
Did I happen to mention that I'm impressed?

I take one, one, one 'cos you left me
And two, two, two for my family
And three, three, three for my heartache
And four, four, four for my headaches
And five, five, five for my loneliness
And six, six, six for my sorrow
And seven, seven for no tomorrow
And eight, eight, I forget what eight was for
But nine, nine, nine for a lost god
Ten, ten, ten, ten for everything, everything, everything, everything...

To Wish Impossible Things

Remember how it used to be?
When the sun would fill the sky
Remember how we used to feel?
Those days would never end
Those days would never end

Remember how it used to be?
When the stars would fill the sky
Remember how we used to dream?
Those nights would never end
Those nights would never end

It was the sweetness of your skin
It was the hope of all we might have been
That filled me with the hope to wish
Impossible things
To wish impossible things

But now the sun shines cold
And all the sky is grey
The stars are dimmed by clouds and tears
And all I wish is gone away
All I wish is gone away...

Space-dye Vest

Falling through pages of Martens on angels
Feeling my heart pull west
I saw the future dressed as a stranger
Love in a space-dye vest

Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding
A pool in the shape of a heart
Beauty projection in the reflection
Always the worst way to start

Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it
I'm learning to swallow the rage
I've found a new girl, I think we can make it
As long as she stays on the page

This is not how I want it to end
And I'll never be open again

There's no one to take my blame
If they wanted to
There's nothing to keep me sane
And it's all the same to you
There's nowhere to set my aim
So I'm everywhere
Never come near me again
Do you really think I need you?

I'll never be open again...I could never be open again

And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend
And I'll never be open again
And I'll have no more dreams to defend
And I'll never be open again...

The Ubiquitous Mr. Lovegrove

I thought that you knew it all
Well, you've seen it ten times before
I thought that you had it down
With both your feet on the ground
I love slow...slow but deep
Feigned affections wash over me
Dream on my dear
And renounce temporal obligations
Dream on my dear
It's a sleep from which you may not awaken

You build me up then you knock me down
You play the fool while I play the clown
We keep time to the beat of an old slave drum
You raise my hopes then you raise the odds
You tell me that I dream too much
Now I'm serving time in disillusionment

I don't believe you anymore...I don't believe you...

I thought that I knew it all
I'd seen all the signs before
I thought that you were the one
In darkness my heart was won

I don't believe you anymore...I don't believe you...

Never let it be said I was untrue
I never found a home inside of you
Never let it be said I was untrue
I gave you all my time...

Sub-Culture

I like walking in the park
When it gets late at night
I move round in the dark
And leave when it gets light
I sit around by day
Tied up in chains so tight
These crazy words of mine
So wrong they could be right

I like talking in my sleep
When people work so hard
They need what they can keep
A choice that leaves them scarred
A view without a room
Unveils the truth so soon
And when the sun goes down
You've lost what you had found

What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone
One of these days when you sit by yourself
You'll realise you can't shaft without someone else
In the end you will submit
It's got to hurt you a little bit
What do I get out of this?
I always try, I always miss
One of these days you'll go back to your home
You won't even notice that you are alone...

Without You I'm Nothing

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide
I'll take it by your side
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide
I'll take it by your side
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies
I'll take it by your side
Over saturation curls the skin and tans the hide
I'll take it by your side

I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen
I seem to lose the power of speech
You're slipping slowly from my reach
You grow me like an evergreen
You've never seen the lonely me at all

I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways
I...
Fall...

Without you, I'm nothing
Without you, I'm nothing
Without you, I'm nothing

Take the plan, spin it sideways
Without you, I'm nothing at all...

Waking Up Beside You

I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world
Forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay

So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you
I miss...
God I miss waking up beside you

At night I cling to you, I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake up and find you gone
But you promise that you'd not abandon me
And then kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day

But I memorized the way our eyes would meet
Reflected off the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair
I miss...
God I miss waking up beside you

I've been alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone

But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body
I miss...
God I miss waking up beside you...

Disintegration

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery
The shameless kiss of vanity
The soft and the black and the velvety
Up tight against the side of me
And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
And run in thickening streams of greed
As bit by bit, it starts the need
To just let go
My party piece

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery
The aching kiss before I feed
The stench of a love for a younger meat
And the sound that it makes
When it cuts in deep
The holding up on bended knees
The addiction of duplicities
As bit by bit, it starts the need
To just let go
My party piece

But I never said I would stay to the end
So I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
Screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
Screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs
Pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet
And stains on the scenery
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When we both of us knew
How the ending would be

So it's all come back round to breaking apart again
Breaking apart like I'm made up of glass again
Making it up behind my back again
Holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
Holding it up behind my head again
Cut in deep to the heart of the bone again
Round and round and round
And it's coming apart again
Over and over and over

Now that I know that I'm breaking to pieces
I'll pull out my heart
And I'll feed it to anyone
Crying for sympathy
Crocodiles cry for the love of the crowd
And the three cheers from everyone
Dropping through sky
Through the glass of the roof
Through the roof of your mouth
Through the mouth of your eye
Through the eye of the needle
It's easier for me to get closer to heaven
Than ever feel whole again

I never said I would stay to the end
I knew I would leave you with babies and everything
Screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
Screaming me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs
Pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet
And stains on the memory
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When we both of us knew
How the end always is

How the end always is...

Speedway

And when you slam down the hammer
Can you see it in your heart?
All of the rumours keeping me grounded
I never said that they were completely unfounded
When you slam down the hammer
Can you see it in your heart?
Can you delve so low?
And when you're standing on my fingers
Can you see it in your heart?
And when you try to break my spirit
It won't work
Because there's nothing left to break anymore

All of the rumours keeping me grounded
I never said that they were completely unfounded
You won't sleep until the earth that wants me finally has me
Oh you've done it now
You won't rest until the hearse that becomes me finally takes me
Oh you've done it now
You won't smile until my loving mouth is shut good and proper
FOREVER

All of the rumours keeping me grounded
I never said that they were completely unfounded
And all those lies
Written lies, twisted lies
Well, they weren't lies
They weren't lies
They weren't lies

I never said...
I could have mentioned your name
I could have dragged you in
Guilt by implication, by association
I've always been true to you
In my own strange way
I've always been true to you
In my own sick way
I'll always stay true to you...

Wait

Under a blackened sky, far beyond the glaring streetlights
Sleeping on empty dreams, the vultures lie in wait
You lay down beside me there
You were with me every waking hour
So close I could hear your breath

When all we wanted was the dream
To have and to hold, that precious little thing
Like every generation yields
A newborn hope unjaded by their years

Face pressed up against the glass
I find myself wanting sympathy
But to be consumed again,
Oh I know would be the death of me
And there is a love that's inherently given
The kind of blindness offered to appease
In the light of forbidden joy, oh I know
I won't receive it

You know if I leave you now
It doesn't mean that I love you any less
It's just the state I'm in
I can't be good to anyone else like this

When all we wanted was the dream
To have and to hold, that precious little thing
Like every generation yields
A newborn hope unjaded by their years...

But Not Tonight

Oh God, it's raining
And I'm not complaining
It's filling me up with new life
The stars in the sky
Bring tears to my eyes
They're lighting my way tonight

And I haven't felt so alive in years...

Just for a day
On a day like to day
I'll get away from this constant debauchery
The wind in my hair
Makes me so aware
How good it is to live tonight

And I haven't felt so alive in years
The moon is shining in the sky
Reminding me of so many other nights
But they're not like tonight

Oh God, it's raining
And I'm not containing
My pleasure at being so wet
Here on my own
All on my own
How good it feels to be alone tonight

And I haven't felt so alive in years
The moon is shining in the sky
Reminding me of so many other nights
When my eyes have been so red
I'd been mistaken for dead
But not tonight...

Faded

You can believe in me, baby
Can I believe in you?
What you don't know can hurt you, child
All the things a mind can do to you

If I go bad from time to time
Love to love but love is not my only crime
Bathe the path, shine the light
Better get your ass up on the mountain, baby
I'll take you up tonight

Faded
This I feel
Behind the blue clouds
I remain concealed
Lord, lift me out of the night
Come on, look down
And see the mess I'm in tonight

You can believe in me, baby
Can I believe in you?
I wish I could remember what you said
When I said enough

You said
Good boy...bad boy...killjoy...
Get your ass over here, boy
And since I know myself so well
Don't breathe a word
Don't you ever tell

You can believe in me, baby
Can I believe in you?
That secret's gonna kill you in the end
It's gonna kill you...

Thieves Like Us

I've watched your face for a long time
It's always the same
I've studied the cracks and the wrinkles
You were always so vain
Well, now you live your life like a shadow
In the pouring rain
Oh, it's called love
Yes, it's called love
Oh, it's called love
And it belongs to us
Oh, it dies so quickly
It grows so slowly
But when it dies, it dies for good
It's called love
And it belongs to everyone but us

I've lived my life in the valleys
I've lived my life on the hills
I've lived my life on alcohol
I've lived my life on pills
But it's called love
And it belongs to us
It's called love
And it's the only thing that's worth living for
It's called love
And it belongs to us
It's called love
Yes it's called love

Oh, love is found in the East and West
But when love is at home it's the best
Love is the cure for every evil
Love is the air that supports the eagle
It's called love
And it's so un-cool
It's called love
And somehow it's become unmentionable
It's called love
And it belongs to every one of us
It's called love
And it cuts your life like a broken knife...

Gangster

It's not the way that you would listen
Or the way you comb your hair
It's the fact that you are missing
How I feel when you're not there
I went through all the months of January
Locked up in this cell
I'd like to be at home, but on my own
I didn't do too well

Look at me, I always get the blame
But I can't even learn to spell my name
I like to read, I like to write
But where I live I learned to fight
So don't you ever say that we're the same

I don't need a doctor
Telling me I'm full of juice
It's not a statement that I'm making
But the plain and simple truth
I went through all the months of January
Locked up in my cell
I'd like to think of home, when I'm alone
It doesn't work too well...

From The Edge Of The Deep Green Sea

Every time we do this
I fall for her
Wave after wave after wave
It's all for her
"I know this can't be wrong" I say
(And I'll lie to keep her happy)
"As long as I know that you know
That today I belong right here with you"

Right here with you...

And so we watch the sun come up
From the edge of the deep green sea
And she listens like her head's on fire
Like she wants to believe in me
So I try
"Put your hands in the sky
Surrender
Remember
We'll be here forever
And we'll never say goodbye... "

I've never been so
Colourfully-see-through-head before
I've never been so
Wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
And all I want is to keep it like this
You and me alone
A secret kiss
And don't go home
Don't go away
Don't let this end
Please stay...
Not just for today...

"Never never never never never let me go" she says
"Hold me like this for a hundred thousand million days"
But suddenly she slows
And looks down at my breaking face
"Why do you cry?
What did I say?"
"But it's just rain" I smile
Brushing my tears away...

I wish I could just stop
I know another moment will break my heart
Too many tears
Too many times
Too many years I've cried over you

How much more can we use it up?
Drink it dry?
Take this drug?
Looking for something forever gone
But something we will always want...

"Why why why are you letting me go?" she says
"I feel you pulling back
I feel you changing shape"
And just as I'm breaking free
She hangs herself in front of me
Slips her dress like a flag to the floor
And hands in the sky
Surrenders it all...

I wish I could just stop
I know another moment will break my heart
Too many tears
Too many times
Too many years I've cried for you
It's always the same
Wake up in the rain
Head in pain
Hung in shame
A different name
Same old game
Love in vain
And miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
Away from home again...

I Know It's Over

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
And as I climb into an empty bed
Oh well...enough said
I know it's over - still I cling
I don't know where else I can go

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
See, the sea wants to take me
The knife wants to slit me
Do you think you can help me?
Sad veiled bride, please be happy
Handsome groom, give her room
Loud, loutish lover, treat her kindly
(Though she needs you
More than she loves you)
And I know it's over - still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Over and over and over and over
Over and over...

I know it's over
And it never really began
But in my heart it was so real
And you even spoke to me, and said
"If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight?
And if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very good-looking
Why do you sleep alone tonight?
I know...
'Cause tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they're in each other's arms..."

It's so easy to laugh
It's so easy to hate
It takes strength to be gentle and kind
Over, over, over, over
It's so easy to laugh
It's so easy to hate
It takes guts to be gentle and kind
Over, over...
Love is natural and real
But not for you, my love
Not tonight, my love
Love is natural and real
But not for such as you and I, my love

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head...

Porcelain

Hey, you've got a lot of nerve
To show your face 'round here
Hey, you've got a lot of nerve
To dredge up all my fears
Well, I wish I could shake some sense into you
Then walk out the door
But your skin is like porcelain
Your skin is like porcelain

Just the other day I felt
I had you by a string
And just the other day I felt
We could be everything
But now when I see you, you're somebody else
With somebody's eyes
And your skin is like porcelain
Your skin is like porcelain

I don't know what I'm saying
I don't know if you're there
In the words you are feigning
Do you even care?

Well, I wish I could kill you
Savor the sight
Get into my car, drive into the night
Then lie as I scream to the heavens above
That I was the last one you ever loved

Porcelain...

Your skin is like porcelain...

Where The Wild Roses Grow

They call me The Wild Rose
But my name was Elisa Day
Why they call me it I do not know
For my name was Elisa Day

From the first day I saw her I knew she was the one
She stared in my eyes and smiled
For her lips were the colour of the roses
That grew down the river, all bloody and wild

When he knocked on my door and entered the room
My trembling subsided in his sure embrace
He would be my first man, and with a careful hand
He wiped at the tears that ran down my face

On the second day I brought her a flower
She was more beautiful than any woman I'd seen
I said, "Do you know where the wild roses grow
So sweet and scarlet and free?"

On the second day he came with a single red rose
Said: "Will you give me your loss and your sorrow"
I nodded my head, as I lay on the bed
He said, "If I show you the roses, will you follow?"

On the third day he took me to the river
He showed me the roses and we kissed
And the last thing I heard was a muttered word
As he knelt (stood smiling) above me with a rock in his fist

On the last day I took her where the wild roses grow
And she lay on the bank, the wind light as a thief
And I kissed her goodbye, said, "All beauty must die"
And lent down and planted a rose between her teeth...

Dark Angel

I met this girl
She was walking through one of my dreams
She kissed my eyes
And everything that she said
Made so much sense to me
That I still feel like I'm half asleep

My dark angel
She gave me diamonds for eyes
She walked by
Now I'm hypnotised
By this dream
That just won't stop
And I feel
Like I've always been lost in this dream

The rumours of Heaven
Only speed the truth on Earth
My dark angel
Shine your light on my curse
You are the other that I have to find
Until I do
I guess I'll see you 'round my mind

So Colorado
Is a place I have to go
I heard a rumour
She loves the mountains and the snow
My dark angel
She gave me diamonds for eyes
My dark angel
I offer you my heart
My dark angel
I think I loved you from the start

Cause there is this face I know
That I've never seen
Sometimes I feel I'm living in
Someone else's dream
Still I'd like to thank you
For stopping to talk
And I wonder
Just into whose dream did who walk?

Oh my dark angel
Shine your light on me
Shine your light
Shine your light
Shine your light on me...

What Jail Is Like

I'll warn you, if cornered
I'll scratch my way out of the pen
Wired, an animal
The claustrophobia begins
You think I'm scared of girls?
Well maybe
But I'm not afraid of you
You want to scare me then you'll cling to me no matter what I do

Tell you a secret
They shared a needle once or twice
I loved her, she loved me
We slept together a couple of times
You think I'm proud of this?
Well maybe
But the shame you never lose
Infatuated with a lunatic and cornered by the muse

And it goes down every night
This must be what jail is really like
And I will scratch my way out of this pen...again

Lonely?
Maybe
Or maybe not
It all depends
Your idea, your image
Your definition of a friend
If what you're shoveling is company
Then I'd rather be alone
Resentment always goes much further than it was supposed to go

And it goes down every night
This must be what jail is really like
And I will scratch my way out of this pen
And I will fall back into it again...

Ciao!

Together:
I've been so happy since I walked away
I never thought that I could
Feel as great as I do today
'Cause you were nothing but a big mistake
And life is wonderful, now that I'm rid of you

He:
Oh I must've been crazy to have stayed with you
I can't believe I thought I was in love with you
But now the scales have fallen, I can really see
And I say go to Hell, 'cause that's where you took me

She:
Well, I've felt better since I slammed that door
You always cramped my style, I never noticed before
It's been a non-stop party since I flew the coop
I can't believe I fell for such a loser like you

He:
And is it any wonder that I felt so blue
When I was always having to put up with you?

She:
Oh, here we go again, just lay the blame on me
Don't say another word, 'cause sweetheart, you're history

[He:]
[I bet you're loving every minute of it
Sitting in your kitchen eating meager meals with the curtains closed
While in your bed I'm sitting on today
I don't give a damn anyway]

She:
I know that you miss me really
Bet you wish that you still had me
You'll never find someone like me
But I've got no regrets at all

He:
'Cause I've met this girl and she's so good to me
She's really beautiful, fantastic company
Oh, when I'm with her I realise what love can be
'Cause she's fifty times the person you will ever be

She:
Good luck mister, do you think I care?
Since you've been gone the offers have been everywhere
I've got a million guys just lining up for me
I've turned a corner, boy, my life is ecstasy

Together:
I've been in Heaven since I walked away
I never thought that I could feel as great as I do today
'Cause you were nothing but a waste of space
And life is wonderful, now that I'm over you...

Superhero

Sleepwalking through the all-night drugstore
Baptized in flourescent light
I found religion in the greeting card aisle
Now I know Hallmark was right
And every pop song on the radio
Is suddenly speaking to me
Art may imitate life
But life imitates t.v.
Because you've been gone exactly two weeks
Two weeks and three days
And let's just say that things look different now
Different in so many ways

I used to be a superhero
No one could touch me
Not even myself
You are like a phone booth
I somehow stumbled into
And now look at me
I am just like everybody else

If I was dressed in my best defenses
Would you agree to meet me for coffee?
If I did my tricks with smoke and mirrors
Would you still know which one was me?
If I was naked and screaming
On your front lawn
Would you turn on the light and come down
Screaming "there's the asshole
Who did this to me
Stripped me of my power
Stripped me down..."

I used to be a superhero
No one could hurt me
Not even myself
You are like a phone booth
I somehow stumbled into
And now look at me
I am just like everybody else

You've been gone exactly two weeks
Two weeks and three days
And now I'm a different person
Different in so many ways
Tell me--what did you like about me?
Don't say my strength and daring
Because now I think I'm at your mercy
And it's my first time for this kind of thing

I used to be a superhero
I would swoop down and save me
From myself
You are like a phone booth
That I somehow stumbled into
And now look at me
I am just like everybody else
I am worse than everybody else...

Why

I am not here
I think I've never
Been here at all
Or ever will
I feel like a place
Where no one goes anymore

Why can't you see that everything's broken?
And why can't you see that my life's turned gray?
I can't believe in anything sacred
When I don't believe that I am real

It seems so bizarre
But none of this matters
Thoughts disappear and hopes have died
But now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here

Why can't you see my need for forgiveness?
The truth and the lies so confused as one
I can't believe in anything sacred
When I don't believe in anything

I am alone
Locked in my memories
There's nowhere left for me to hide
But I am not real
I've made all I am with lies

Why does it seem that everything's different?
And why does it seem that only you are real?
I don't believe in anything sacred
So why do I feel so damned alone?

I need someone to break the silence
Screaming in my head
And in my soul...

Doubt

Stop my flight to fight
And die
And take a stand to change my life
So savage with red desperation
I clench my hands
You draw your claws
A hidden rage consumes my heart
Fuelled by years of wasted time
I close my eyes
And tense myself
And screaming
Throw myself in fury over the edge
And into your blood

Tear at flesh
And rip at skin
And smash at doubt
I have to break you
Fury drives my vicious blows
I see you fall but still I strike you
Again and again
Your body falls
The movement is sharp and clear and pure
And gone
I stop and kneel beside you
Drained of everything but pain
Screaming throw myself in fury
Over the edge and into your blood

Kiss you once and see you writhe
Hold you close and hear you cry
Kiss your eyes and finish your life
Kiss your eyes
Finish your life

Again and again
Your body falls
The movement is sharp and clear and pure
And gone
I stop and kneel beside you
Knowing I'll murder you again tonight

Knowing I'll murder you again...
Knowing I'll murder you again...
Knowing I'll murder you again...
Knowing I'll murder you again...
Tonight...

Late Night, Maudlin Street

Winter coming
Winter push on
Oh, winter push on
Winter is so long
Winter moves on

The last night on Maudlin Street
Goodbye house, goodbye stairs
I was born here
And I was raised here
And I took some stick here

Love at first sight
It may sound trite
But it's true, you know
I could list the detail
Of everything you ever wore or said
Or how you stood the day
As we spent the last night
On Maudlin Street
"Goodbye house, forever!"
I never stole a happy hour
Around here

Where the world's ugliest boy
Became what you see
Here I am - the ugliest man
Oh, the last night on Maudlin Street
Truly I do love you
Oh, truly I do love you

When I sleep
With that picture of you framed beside my bed
It's childish and it's silly
But I think it's you in my room, by the bed
(...yes, I told you it was silly...)

And I know
I took strange pills
But I never meant to hurt you
Oh, truly I love you
Came home late one night
Everyone had gone to bed
But, you know
No one stays up for you
I had sixteen stitches
All around my head
The last bus I missed to Maudlin Street
So he drove me home in the van
Complaining, "Women only like me for my mind..."
Don't leave your torch behind
A powercut ahead; 1972, you know

And so we crept through the park
No, I cannot steal a pair of jeans off a clothesline
For you
But you...without clothes
Oh, I could not keep a straight face
Me - without clothes?
Well, a nation turns its back and gags...
I'm packed

I am moving house
A half-life disappears today
With "every hand waves me on"
(secretly wishing me gone)
Well, I will be soon
I will be soon
I will be soon
I will be soon
Will be soon, I will be soon
I will be soon, I will be soon

There were bad times on Maudlin Street
They took you away in a police car
Inspector - don't you know?
Don't you care?
Don't you know - about love?

Your gran died
And your mother died
On Maudlin Street
In pain, and ashamed
With never time to say
Those special things
I took the key from Maudlin Street
Well, it's only bricks and mortar!
Truly I love you
Wherever you are
Wherever you are
Wherever you are
I hope you're singing now
I do hope
I hope you're singing now...

My Curse

You hurt me baby
I flinch so when you do
Your kisses scourge me
Hyssop in your perfume
I do not fear you
And slave I only use
As a word to describe the special way I feel for you

You look like me
And I look like no one else
We need no other
As long as we have ourselves
But I won't cry about it
Every time you get obsessed
Every time I came undressed

All ugly thoughts are gone
I'm sure we'll all be friends
I'll try to break your back
You'll try to make amends
Curse softly to me baby
And smother me in your love
Temptation comes not from Hell but from above

And there's blood on my teeth
When I bite my tongue to speak
Zip me down, kiss me there
I can smile now
You won't find out ever
Hurt me baby
I flinch so when you do
Your kisses scourge me
Hyssop in your perfume
I do not fear you
And slave I only use as a word to describe
The way I feel when I'm with you
If I have to lie about it everytime I came undressed...

In The Cage

I got sunshine in my stomach
Like I just rocked my baby to sleep
I got sunshine in my stomach
But I can't keep me from creeping sleep
Sleep, deep in the deep

Rockface moves to press my skin
White liquids turn sour within
Turn fast-turn sour
Turn sweat-turn sour
Must tell myself that I'm not here
I'm drowning in a lake of fear
Bottled in a strong compression
My distortion shows obsession
In the cave
Get me out of this cave!

If I keep self-control
I'll be safe in my soul
And the childhood belief
Brings a moment's relief
But my cynic soon returns
And the lifeboat burns
My spirit just never learns

Stalactities, stalagmites
Shut me in, lock me tight
Lips are dry, food is dry
Feel like burning, stomach churning
I'm dressed up in a white costume
Padding out left-over room
Body stretching, feel the wretching
In the cage
Get me out of this cage!

In the glare of a light
I see a strange kind of sight
Of cages joined to form a star
Each person can't go very far
All tied to their things
They are netted by their strings
Free to flutter in memories of their wasted wings

Outside the cage I see my brother John
He turns his head so slowly round
I cry out "Help!" before he can be gone
And he looks at me without a sound
And I shout out "John, please help me!"
But he does not even want to try to speak
I'm helpless in my violent rage
And a silent tear of blood dribbles down his cheek
And I watch him turn again and leave the cage
My little runaway

In a trap, feel a strap
Holding still, pinned for kill
Chances narrow that I'll make it
In the cushioned straightjacket
Just like 22nd Street
And they got me by their neck and feet
Pressure's building, can't take more
My headache's charge, my earache's roar
In this pain
Get me out of this pain!

If I could turn to liquid
I could fill the cracks up in the rock
But I know that I am solid
And I am my own bad luck
Outside John disappears and my cage dissolves
And without any reason my body revolves

Keep on turning
Keep on turning
Keep on turning
Keep on turning
Keep on turning
Turning around
Just spinning around
Down, down, down...

Waiting For The Miracle

Baby, I've been waiting
I've been waiting night and day
I didn't see the time
I waited half my life away
There were lots of invitations
And I know you sent me some
But I was waiting
For the miracle, for the miracle to come

I know you really loved me
But, you see, my hands were tied
I know it must have hurt you
It must have hurt your pride
To have to stand beneath my window
With your bugle and your drum
And me I'm up there waiting
For the miracle, for the miracle to come

I don't believe you'd like it
You wouldn't like it here
There ain't no entertainment
And the judgements are severe
The Maestro says it's Mozart
But it sounds like bubble gum
When you're waiting
For the miracle, for the miracle to come

Waiting for the miracle
There's nothing left to do
I haven't been this happy
Since the end of World War II
Nothing left to do
When you know that you've been taken
Nothing left to do
When you're begging for a crumb
Nothing left to do
When you've got to go on waiting
Waiting for the miracle to come

I dreamed about you, baby
It was just the other night
Most of you was naked
But some of you was light
The sands of time were falling
From your fingers and your thumb
And you were waiting
For the miracle, for the miracle to come

Baby, let's get married
We've been alone too long
Let's be alone together
Let's see if we're that strong
Let's do something crazy
Something absolutely wrong
While we're waiting
For the miracle, for the miracle to come

Nothing left to do...

When you've fallen on the highway
And you're lying in the rain
And they ask you how you're doing
Of course you'll say you can't complain
If you're squeezed for information
That's when you've got to play it dumb
You just say you're out there waiting
For the miracle, for the miracle to come...

Learning To Live

There was no time for pain
No energy for anger
The sightlessness of hatred slips away
Walking through winter streets alone
He stops and takes a breath
With confidence and self control

I look at the world and see no understanding
I'm waiting to find some sense of strength
I'm begging you from the bottom of my heart to show some understanding

I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to my knees
And I lay here drained of stength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth

The way that your heart sounds makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way that your heart beats makes all the difference
In learning to live
Here before me is my soul
I'm learning to live
I won't give up
Till I've no more to give

Listening to the city
Whispering its violence
I set out watching from above
The 90s bring new questions
New solutions to be found
I fell in love to be let down

Once again we dance in the crowd
At times a step away
From a common fear that's all spread out
It won't listen to what you say
Once you're touched and you stand alone
To face the bitter fight
Once I reached for love
And now I reach for life

Another chance to lift my life
Free the sensation in my heart
To ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
It brings inner peace within my mind
As I'm lifted from where I've split my lif
I hear an innocent voice
I hear kindness, beauty and truth

The way your heart sounds makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats makes all the difference
In learning to live
Spread before you is your soul
So forever hold the dreams within our hearts
Through nature's inflexible grace
I'm learning to live...

Infected

Now here I go
Hope I don't break down
I won't take anything, I don't need anything
Don't want to exist, I can't persist
Please stop before I do it again
Just talk about nothing, let's talk about nothing
Let's talk about no one, please talk about no one
Someone
Anyone

You and me have a disease
You affect me, you infect me
I'm afflicted, you're addicted
You and me, you and me

I'm on the edge
Get against the wall
I'm so distracted
I love to strike you
Here's my confession
You learned your lesson
Stop me before I do it again

You're clear
As a heavy lead curtain want to drill you--like an ocean
We can work it out, I've been running out, now I'm running out
Don't be mad about it baby

You and me have a disease
I want to tie you, crucify you
Kneel before you, revile your body
You and me were made in Heaven
I want to take you, I want to break you
Supplicate you with thorny roses
You and me are incurable
I want to bathe you in holy water
I want to kill you upon the altar
You and me
You and me...

Me And My Charms

You can come back
When you want
Just know that I'll be here
I haven't left this step
And when the lights go out
I pick the angel up
I only have two hands

Is she here?
Is she here right now?
Drive her off; don't bother to call
I'm checking out today

Me and my charms
Me and my charms
When I kiss the angel
I have a taste of you
When I take the angel
I have a piece of you
I have a piece...

You can come back
I haven't left you yet
And when the lights go out
I pick the angel up
I only have two left feet
All I have in my hands
All I have in my hands...

Me and my charms
Me and my charms
When I kiss the angel
I have a taste of me and my charms
Me and my charms down on the ground
You can't leave me now
You can't leave me now
I haven't left you yet

All I have in my hands
Me and my charms
Me and my charms
When I kiss the angel
I have a taste of you
When I take the angel
I have a piece of you
I have a piece...

Nowhere Fast

I'd like to drop my trousers to the world
I am a man of means (of slender means)
Each household appliance
Is like a new science in my town
And if the day came when I felt a natural emotion
I'd get such a shock I'd probably jump in the ocean
And when a train goes by
It's such a sad sound
No...
It's such a sad thing

I'd like to drop my trousers to the Queen
Every sensible child will know what this means
The poor and the needy
Are selfish and greedy on her terms
And if the day came when I felt a natural emotion
I'd get such a shock I'd probably jump in the ocean
And when a train goes by
It's such a sad sound
No...
It's such a sad thing

And when I'm lying in my bed
I think about life
And I think about death
And neither one particularly appeals to me
And if the day came when I felt a natural emotion
I'd get such a shock I'd probably lie
In the middle of the street and die
I'd lie down and die...

Indifference

I will light the match this morning
So I won't be alone
Watch as she lies silent
But soon light will be gone
I will stand arms outstretched
Pretend I'm free to roam
I will make my way through one more day in Hell

How much difference does it make?
How much difference does it make?

I will hold the candle
'Til it burns up my arm
I'll keep takin' punches
'Til their will grows tired
I will stare the sun down
Until my eyes go blind
I won't change direction
And I won't change my mind

How much difference does it make?
How much difference does it make?

I'll swallow poison until I grow immune
I will scream my lungs out
'Til it fills this room

How much difference...
How much difference...
How much difference does it make?
How much difference does it make?

Milk

I am milk
I am red hot kitchen
And I am cool
Cool as the deep blue ocean

I am lost
So I am cruel
But I'd be love and sweetness
If I had you

I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you

I am weak
But I am strong
I can use my tears to
Bring you home

I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you

I am milk
I am red hot kitchen
I am cool
Cool as the deep blue ocean

I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you

I'm waiting
I'm waiting for you
I'm aching
I'm aching for you

I'm waiting
I'm waiting
I'm waiting...
For you...

"And if there's one thing that I've learned from life, it's that it gets you in the end."

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