If you've seen my other site, you know that I'm essentially a child of Eve, human in most ways, not a member of any cults (except AA ), or clans. I don't believe in crystals, or most of the rest of the New Age stuff. I do consider myself a Christian, though I doubt Jerry Falwell would welcome me into the fold. That's his problem, not mine :-) Actually, one of my poems states my current belief system pretty well - buddhist/taoist/jungian/magickal/christian. If you haven't seen my other site, and aren't inclined to, well that's fine - I'll include some of the highlights here, too. (Heh - funny how we refer to the main attractions as high "lights", isn't it?)

I'm the mother of two beautiful kids, thirty-something, and a full-time student. I'm also, and more fully, the sum total of every person I've ever met, (meet some here) every text I've ever read, (some papers and excerpts from my recent readings) every sunrise and sunset I've ever seen. (Sorry, only the Friends link is active yet... but soon, soon)

I'm also a student of life, in the most boring place on earth, or so says everyone who visits me! I'm majoring in Psychology, with double minors in English and Alcohol Studies - eventually becoming a counselor who will know how to get into people's heads, and tell them most eloquently about themselves! LOL Really, though, my aspirations are to write about the newest discoveries of the field of psychology, especially in relation to the spirit, in layman's terms. Who knows, maybe I'll even be involved in a few ground-breaking studies of my own, someday. %^)

Basically,

I am who I am.

Some may be offended by the content of my pages here. If so, feel free to visit my other site, or perhaps the Disney Channel is more your speed. Some may even be afraid that I've changed away from the sweet innocent gal I portrayed myself to be for so long. (Ha!) I'm still nice enough (or so I'm told), but today I don't bother pretending to be something I'm not.

On the 4th of July, 1998, my oldest sister gave me a bit of wisdom. One simple sentence that helped prevent me from making yet another drastic mistake in my life, and in the process, revealed to me a side of myself I didn't realize that others could see. She looked me straight in the eyes, and said:

"Don't be afraid of your own strength."

Little did she realize how much power that one statement would give me. She may not be entirely enthused by the choices my strength enables me to make, without fear, today… but the more I learn about the shadows in my life, the more enlightened I become - and that is never a bad thing. My hope, in building this site, is to enable others (maybe even you?) to be able to look inside themselves and see his or her own strength. And maybe, just maybe, not be afraid of it.

One more thing, before I get on with this exhibition. I'm not out to win any awards for this site, so the layout won't be your standard fare. I'm an Aries, so originality and non-conformity come with the package J



I wish I could say that I started on this journey on my own.
It didn't exactly happen that way, to say the least! At the time this all began, I was nearing the trial date against my now ex-husband, for domestic violence (what a misnomer - the fact of the matter is, the man belittled, berated, and sometimes beat me into submission to his will, for six horrendous years).
I thought the very last thing I needed was an exploration into the spiritual realm. However, someone (then) important to me helped me realize that all faith systems have some core similarities. That thought led me to begin this journey, investigating (with an open mind I never would have believed possible) most of the worlds' religions, including buddhism, taoism, mysticism - both Christian and non, Hinduism, as well as astrology, and magick. He gave me a few tools to start on the journey,

to help me acknowledge my shadow side,
and to better see my own strength.

Without that impetus, I might never have opened this pathway into the shadows of my soul. Carl Jung, Freud's one-time partner, was one of the first Westerners to explore the realm he called the "shadow." A union with God, through mysticism and a sense of the spiritual; the "collective unconscious" that each of us share, and can tap into, if we only have the desire, the will, and the courage to face our darkest fears. This journey has not been without its perils. But the rewards have far exceeded my wildest expectations.
This is not a deviation from my childhood faith, IMHO. If anything, it's an expansion of it. God is still and will always be the very key to my belief system. We are, after all, made in the image of the Creator. He has a perfect will, for each of our lives. I for one, am thoroughly convinced that this journey is part of His will for my life.

We each have a purpose here, a path, all our own.
We can choose to ignore it, avoid it, deny it -
or walk down it, come what may.






So...Where do you want to go?

The Elysian Library..... has many of my newer poems, as well as a few other links.
Friends and Associates.... links to websites of the best of the best.... some truly wonderful people I know from all over the world.
Fave Sites .... (hopefully soon) links to my favorite places, virtual and otherwise... *smile*
Pics.... A personal website is never complete without a few pics, is it? sigh... look at your own risk.





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