Dear Dayananda Prabhu
Please accept my respectful obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
The following is a copy of a letter I sent
to Harikesa Maharaja in response to personal
inquiries which were similar to the ones you
asked.
Aspiring to be the sincere
servant of the servant,
Yours Truly,
Gauranga Prema Dasa
Hare Krsna
P.S. Nirantara Prabhu [ISKCON L.A.] has instructed me to go to New York.
Gauranga Prema Dasa
[Greg Regosin]
13-Jul-97
Dear Harikesa Maharaja
Please accept my respectful obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
Please forgive me for my impudency. I am sincerely sorry. Does not a personality such as yourself have immediate access to the answers of the questions you asked? Hopefully this question at least partly expresses my present state of confusion. But because you have inquired, I will attempt to reply in a completely straightforward manner, with sincerity and humility. As you know, my initiated name is Gauranga Prema Dasa. This was given to me by Srila Ramesvara, approximately 7 months after I joined Honolulu's ISKCON Hawaii, in April of 83. When he initiated me, he explained that Lord Gauranga is the most merciful and munificent manifestation of God who distributes divine love freely. "Therefore," he said, because henceforward I will be known as Gauranga Prema Dasa, it has become my mission to find Gauranga Prema, the divine love of the most merciful and munificent manifestation of God, and to distribute Gauranga Prema freely. Shortly thereafter, I began travelling frequently to ISKCON centers throughout North America, making my many inquiries, while strictly practicing the vows of a brahmacari. This status I maintained for three and a half years, during which time, I read all of Srila Prabhupada's books, and the Srila Prabhupada Lilamrta as well. At that point, having become disillusioned and confused by what appeared to me to be contradictions, apparently not in the philosophy, but rather in its application, I became what I would call a wifeless grhamedi, if there is such a thing, all the while continuing my practice of hearing and chanting, but unfortunately somewhat sporadically. Around the beginning of 1990, I once again began travelling, this time to practically all the ISKCON centers throughout North America. Presently, having resumed my practice of hearing and chanting regularly, and performing my sadhana strictly, as stated previously, I am simply engaged in submitting inquiries...exclusively. My so-called family, former so-called friends, and even most of the devotees, apparently consider me crazy, and as a result of this, as well as my constant, you could say aggressive method of inquiry, I have been banned from practically every ISKCON center throughout all the three countries. As you may well be aware of by now, most of my activities and experiences have been recorded in a philosophical autobiography entitled: To Be or Not To Be A Hare Krsna Devotee...Mein Kampf III, which according to Radha Ramana Prabhu, has been recorded on a computer disc and filed at the ISKCON center in Los Angeles. Since Badrinarayana Prabhu, who while considering my history, somewhat recently banned me from the ISKCON center in San-Diego, for freely distributing the compilation of quotes, which I submitted to the GBC, to the other devotees, I spend most of my time apparently alone, either at the library, where I'm trying to learn how to utilize the internet in the service of Krsna and his devotees, or at the room of the Hotel San-Diego I presently reside in. One devotee named Jaya Rsi Prabhu, once claimed, that previously I was known as the infamous Asvatthama, and in a dream I had recently, Srila Prabhupada stated, that in the past I was Adolf Hitler. Now, considering whatever understanding of karma and reincarnation I have attained, and based on whatever I've learned from studying history and the scriptures, I can find no reason to justify disbelieving that both of these declarations may have very well been factual revelations, regardless of how unappealing it may seem to me, or for that matter anybody. I have somewhat recently revealed to certain members of the GBC, and various other members of the vaisnava community, what may or may not be a divinely inspired plan for establishing the daivi varnasrama system, internationally. I have previously, often referred to this proposal, as the Hare Krsna Hotel for the Homeless, Helpless and Hungry...ISKCON INC. plan. I admit that I don't know anything for sure, therefore at present, I am simply presenting some inquiries. Please help me in whatever way you can. And once again, I am sorry for any offenses I may have committed, or if I have said, written or done anything I shouldn't have.
Aspiring to be the sincere
servant of the servant,
Yours Truly,
Gauranga Prema Dasa
Hare Krsna
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Srimad-Bhagavatam [Canto 6, Ch. 1 Text 49]
PURPORT
A human being must be educated to understand his past
life. . . . . There is even a book called Brghu-Samhita
which reveals ones past, present and future lives according
to astrological calculation. Somehow or other one must be
enlightened about his past, present and future.
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Dear Prabhus
Please accept my respectful obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
Have I committed any offenses,
taken any quotes out of context,
made any mistakes, and/or
done anything I shouldn't have?
If so, I'm sorry.
Aspiring to be the sincere
servant of the servant,
Yours Truly,
Gauranga Prema Dasa
Hare Krsna