Why isn't there
enough time
to see
the sun that rises
beyond darkened windows,
nor power to stop it briefly
allowing the world to sleep?
We could then procrastinate
as we delayed for tomorrow
living we face today,
If only redemption were forbidden...or
if with a swallow's dying
Spring would end...
Wouldn't we then perish?
As we tried to reach time
to wish, love, hope, despair...?
In emptiness, beyond dreams,
we'd float
where time lives nowhere.
Ponder, therefore
not what might have been,
The sun forever awaits you -
and no one.
GLÓRIA HOTEL, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil.....
For several years during my travels, the Glória Hotel, Rio de Janeiro, was a sort of second home for me. I saw it at its worst times, when old Sr. Tapajós still ran it and let it decay. I saw it when guests at breakfast had to fight off flies that entered through the opened dining room windows. I saw it as some of my American colleagues considered me someone who didn't know better and who should stay at a better hotel - possibly along the beaches. Fortunately old Tapajós eventually died, leaving his son to take over... The rest is history. The Glória is one of the nicest unknown jewels in Rio.
I did a lot of my writing at that hotel while looking through its beautiful scenery in the distance.
LOUISVILLE, KENTUCKY, October 28, 2000
Front Row - Donald and Elisabeth
Second Row - Sarah and Dena
Laura and McKay' Wedding Day
PRIOR TO THE TEA DANCE
DESTINY 1, 2, 3.......
What can you tell me
If your lies I already know?
You see no life,
though it passes you constantly
in changing images.
Mirror, mirror, on the wall...
staring at pain -
unfeeling, unpossessed,
unhoping, unremembering...
Show me not wrinkles of time.
Talk to me, instead,
of ragtime,
aching quick steps
following a stubborn sound.
Tell me of her smile,
the cupper raised
as memories flow.
She, who will be there again. she, ...the fairest of them all...
Mirror, mirror, on the wall.
Bogotá, Colombia,
October 30, 1972
1
I met at birth
your somber ways.
Undaunted I faced you
and felt your power.
Winds of seasons change -
But you -
Relentlessly
facing life unaltered.
We have battled,
fighting still...
Until spirit that once lived
Pleadingly accepts,
Destiny.
2
Waves -
against a rocky shore
endlessly, life itself...
pulverizing,
expressing themselves
on the sounds to their
silent victims,
Destiny, really, until
the sounding silence dwindles,
And they'll still move -
as they die on a sandy bed.
ADDICTION....
...and so I bought
another book
despite all I had to do:
Letters to write,
music to learn,
problems to solve,
along with all
I must recall.
So much to do,
while birds go on singing
to cats sleeping
cooled by the sun's
afternoon shades...
So much to do,
while the dead sleep
as we go on, not knowing
what for,
or why...
And so I bought
another book -
where first I looked
at the last page,
Trying to find the answer.
Rio de Janeiro
April 4, 1983
************************************
TO YOU PATRICK, AT MIDLENT
Through St. George's Channel,
fighting the draconian Atlantic,
buffered by a North Channel
holding a relentless Britain,
The Sea lulls Gaelic sleepwalkers
into new dreams -
Elsewhere - Far Away...
...Where reality
leads to imaginary forms
of a land that never was.
Where the Gulfstream blends
the tropical aromas of its birth
to solitude left by Nordic invaders,
And rainwaters flow not,
bogging themselves where meadows grow
in morning mists that don't
evaporate, except in tears emitted
by songs of remembrance,
or when blown by
British Airways exercises,
they touch-and-go
as if the land were still
ruled by Westminster,
but not quite...
Into that gentle land you came,
with herculean strength
tossing hissing snakes
that bit your staff into
the fire of an ideal.
You fought, won, and now sleep
where the Sea is Irish -
where the land gave birth
to the myths of Liverpool,
America, Australia...while
incapable of quenching
the fratricidal fight
where the color of blood
in orange taint merges
into the shamrocks's greenery.
On this, your day, we celebrate,
taking your memory
from the urn of history
into a make-believe land
where everyone wants to be from,
so its owners say,
As they leave it to awaken
Elsewhere.
St. Louis, Missouri
March 17, 1991
LOOKING BACK
Death waiting
as I gathered memories -
Vague shadows of bygone ages
cynically fading into Time.
Tell me its worth,
I asked.
Towards my bed they leaned,
You loved, they said.
It was worth it.
I walked
'til time ran still
leaving loneliness my neighbor.
Doors leading to horizons
widened in distances unmet,
into the sound of tongues
unknown,
unfelt,
unfeeling.
Then love appeared...
I felt the horizon
and walked no longer.
ODE TO A DEAD BIRD (CHILE, 1973)
You were aware
As the sun broke the edge of night
and you whistled a new morn
As Nature guided
Your search for life.
You knew no wars
As you could not lead.
You shared the skies
As man's genius roared upwards
Searching centuries' Freedom.
You knew seasons,
time guided you.
Death?
You knew it now,
As man, in search of reason...
Reason? Freedom? Dying?
What have they to do
With songs no longer heard?
Somewhere over Brazil
July 4, 1973
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GRINGO
It's worthless to claim
you know neither the country, nor
the language, or
That you're only someone
who made it through Customs viewing
The usual passage while engrossed
in Temple Fielding as the guide
diverted you to a mountain,
a lake, a sea, views from anywhere;
or while from Hiltonian Intercontinental
Palaces of plastic and glass
you tried to know of Generals
braided in medallions
adorned in slogans,
blessed by banned clerics,
as politicos in platformed pretensions,
published pulp of woven words
selling suntan lotion to Blacks,
hide themselves in their voices.
Look, therefore, for those who
from across the miles came
dancing the rhythms of Labor -
Dance with them, Gringo! Dance!
Dance with the working people!
And you will speak. Truly.
Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
September 12, 1981
ECCLESIASTES, December 12, 1999
Is the sheltering, vibrant tree
dead, once its branches are cut
and its foliage no longer adorns,
or dances to the sounds of birds?
Is the tree dead
once it stops fighting winds
of change, or
calm's steadiness, after
violent rains following
unforgiving droughts,
when only in new storms
life remains?
Or is its life solely
a process where Time is
when and where
The steadiness of destiny
lives arrogantly in plans of long ago?
Is the sheltering tree now housing
life in its death no longer a tree?
Or is its  now continued
where the new sounds
bouncing off its surface are, like the old,
only temporarily passing
until Time tires?
For isn't Time, sustainer,
enemy, Creation and Death,
its journey leaving little,
except for the memories
of insignificant moments,
of laughter, sadness,
anger, victory, defeat,
elation, sadness...
Time does not settle for draws:
Even the strongest trees,
tall and proudly may root
into Nature's unseen faults
while Time waits
smilingly
unconcerned as it nourishes,
or kills mercifully - or in violence.
And what of the sheltered,
the weather changed,
the whispering in the wind,
the awe brought to
those who felt they knew, or could,
preserve?
Time cares not. It plays by the rules
until the Game has ended:
Time 1 - Life 0.
says the scoreboard
at final whistle,
the audience moving on,
some in pain, some in anger,
some in sorrow,
ready for another version of Time,
in another Game,
when Life will celebrate
only the vanquished, now
Strengthened by memories of old.
In memory of Greta Freund, Memphis, Tennessee, a dear friend of more than two generations.
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WINDOWS '01 ...
...a squirrel:
Opening sunflower seeds
on my window sill...
Could this be all,
I ask myself while he eats,
Or should I, like my furry friend,
keep looking
For answers that no chips can store?
Or will GOOGLE tell me
If he worries
that tomorrow's snowmelts will wash,
or carry his seeds away? Or if,
unable to eat all, others take over?
Competition, humans call it...
The data, meanwhile,
telling me nothing, unless
I tell it what I want.
It's always like that:
Bill Gates richly in his
Microsoft world
at my fingertips, just as
Babylonians, Mayans, Hindus,
Arabs prior to Mohamed's prophecies,
found the wonder in a simple zero,
a void where neither positive,
nor negative exist, where
a + 0 = a; a - 0 = a;
a X 0 = 0, meaningless, indivisible.
Did man really need it
so that I may now stare
at a screen telling me nothing -
unless I tell it first?
Or is the squirrel teaching me
that life is a variable to all,
man is incomplete,
frightened, or he wouldn't search for
the insignificance of the unknown
because it's there...?
MORNING VISIT
Crows, rabbits, jays, canaries,
sparrows, cardinals, squirrels...
Greet my awakening...
Friends, different languages,
each in the scheme of life...
my gift -
Stale bread, unedibly ripened fruit,
leftovers I should have eaten yesterday,
Or in times past could have had
accompanied by the hope
that all was well,
healthy, that they would nourish,
if they didn't kill.
My friends don't ask for anything,
while from the outside they observe
through the window, hoping
for the moment when it will open
and in the toss of hands full find:
Sunflower seeds,
bread crumbs, the dried golden corn
still on the cob...
What must they think?
Could it be that
they consider me wealthy?
Or is wealth an insignificant
abstract which, between us,
only I can feel -
having them as friends?
I REALLY DON'T WANT TO KNOW
Don't tell me I'm late
to discover
The first rainbow's birth,
or the laughter of children
catching hailstones
while seeing them
magically disappear.
Nothing is ever late
to the beginner...
Don't tell me there are
no midgets dancing on the moon,
answering my soliloquies
while playing
hide and seek behind
passing clouds.
Don't tell me I'm dreaming,
as grandmother's ghost
in skeletal smiles
frightens me. Would I
see her
peering from the closet
had I stayed
hidden in my bedcovers?
Nothing is unreal
to the believer...
Don't tell me about
stars I haven't counted,
as if I knew not how many greet me,
or play with the friendly moth
whose lamp has retired,
or guide the rippling brook
to quench thirsty seas
that get angry at Heaven's tears
until one morning she gives birth
to the rainbow.
Don't tell me...
Nothing is as it seems
even if stars could be counted.
July 11, 1982
St. Louis, Missouri
EMPTY RINGS
A heart beat,
Yet soon the world darkened
In vanishing hopes.
"Oh, God, won't she answer?"
A twopence coin readied
... but only the buzzing sound...
A meaningless ring pleading:
"I am here!..."
But love was not in that day,
The heart beat slowed,
... death walked away.
SAD SONG
Perhaps, just perhaps,
you'll remember that
I remain - unable to leave
the same ol' place,
The same ol' people,
the same dif'rences
separating us. While
the same ol' wanting
The same ol' days bury
the same ol' wish in
the same ol' hope that
You may still find me -
where we can still be one,
but never the same again...
AT LAST
...then the Carnaval
in madness
will rise from the ashes
burying arms
In cities where greenery grows
glowing towards a Sun
warming a Sea
that defies science,
daring its waters, or
Life itself...
And man will rise
to the winds
as they evict
rains from dirty clouds
And from the cleanly-drenched earth
flowers will rise to meet
the winged gentle, hungry, kiss,
or feed the unconcerned
as the band serenades
the saneness of the Mardi Gras...
while amidst the ashes
burying Hell in changing winds,
A song is born
from the last gap of Death,
as It fades into the First Breath of Victory...
COLD SPELL
I didn't brush my teeth, shower, or shave
while the temperature dropped
inside my formerly -warm house.
Interesting what one doesn?t do when powerless,
other than shiver, hoping that the weather
will just go away.
Even warm clothing,
allied to benefits of the fireplace,
could not relieve depression
that my pills destroy.
Through the picture window,
I could see
crystals hung on unbreakable trees,
loaning their weight to limbs, once
home to birds, now
embedded on slick ice,
remained as long
as Nature wished..
The cell telephone rang telling me
that I was not alone.
Someone still cared,
I hastened,
accepting the lodging offer,
while thinking of those who must be alone
With nowhere to go,
or where the weather never takes a holiday.
How long, I wondered,
Will it be before they will be forgotten
by even good people?
How long, I felt, will they be trying
to neutralize Nature? Two pairs of pants,
even if they had no where to guard them?
Their lives will never be disaster areas,
even if they accepted
its formal definition. Bad luck never afflicts
the weak who want it that way.
Soon, like Reagan's welfare queen in mink,
they wiill be down to collect their allotment,
or keep their luxury cars going
while politicians point to them despairingly -r
even the comfortable have a right to despair-
Or to lie as self justification..
Nature, however, does not lie.
Soon, it will relent in its fury.
while I discard the warmth
of my clothing venturing forth
to brush my teeth, shower, shave,
And even to forget.
St. Louis, Missouri, December 5, 2006
THE ROSE TATOO
She had been vaccinated
On skin that her mother wished
Only her husband would someday see.
Thus I couldn?t even imagine
the pox-conquering mark
Left behind, as she sat facing me.
Yet Mom had no say,
As the rose tattoo above her left breast
Meeting her blouse
Permitted the multi-colored butterfly
to suck the generated nectar
of my imagination
as her breathing would gently move
the insect up and down -
While I wished I had wings,
Even if I were only to live briefly.
St. Louis, Missouri, March 26, 2006
GENETIC MAKE UP
After his anger subsided,
My accuser spoke
Of my volatile inheritance -
Something in the genes,
somewhat like Latin colonels
on American payrolls
Have often shown the world
While pretending to heal
what affects their countrymen.
Strange - since I had not lied,
Nor started a revolution
Anywhere.
Strange, really - since my relatives
In lands of reverse seasons
only obeyed
Myths the new Quislings publicly
Presented, while hiding dollars
Quietly pocketed.
I listened -
Lest I prove the accuser
Correct in his ignorance.
What if I felt
that history
Had often kept him in the dark?
One gains little from truth
if that terrible mother slowly
Sustaining mental changes
Physically jogs non-physical modes
while stereotypes remain.
Mankind will fight off bedbugs
that feed off one?s blood,
Leaving the victim alive for later feeds,
termites whose survival
only comes from slow destruction,
As bombs explode elsewhere.
Truth that matters little
to the powerful with the right ?genes?
with the right gods,
with the right interests
And who Never lie.
St. Louis, Missouri
August 10, 2006
UNTIL
Curiosity never finds the best in you
Until you fail.
Curiosity never finds the best in you
if you do not return
the wonder of childhood
into the life you abandon,
searching where secrets lie
visible to all...
"Mommy," shouts the child
in wonder,
"Abe Lincoln died"... while
at Canaveral, a far-away world
is captured in another truth
as scientists congratulate
themselves for finding existence,
another image on a computer screen,
unable to see
why man should suffer,
or cheer the humble butterfly
that does not
decapitate, or depreciate, God.
Although, as it moves from flower to flower,
it may also wonder
about the gods forcing your wonder
About justice, love, forgiveness,
or being who you are,
and why...
Curiosity never finds the best in you
Until, like the powerful wave,
you will perish on the gentle beach,
and still survive. For you are not
just the wave, but an ocean,
an everlasting sea from whence life came
rolling, creeping, adapting,
- until time to go.
Fear not, therefore, when
you will no longer find
the curiosity abandoned
as life abandoned you,
your prayers, your wish for permanence,
The roar, the swoosh
as your wave reaches destiny.
Fear not, therefore, what form.
is a part of you. Lincolns never die,
as long as you wonder ...
St. Louis, Missouri
December 8, 2000
River... quietly moving,
as Life sings...
A savior to the thirsty,
a plague to the flooded.
In either case, you provide...
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