God is good.  Three years ago I would have never thought that I would live to see my twenty fifth birthday.  But God is good.  I'm very greatful to God for allowing me to be able to see another year. 
October 15, 1996 is a day I will never forget.  Physically I lose so much on that day but emotionally and mentally I gained something that no operation or nobody will ever be able to take away.  I know first hand what it feels like to be dying .  That day and the eight months that followed made me who I am today. 
Few people ever saw me cry but I did.  I was a true solider.  Not a No Limit Solider.  But a solider for God.  Each day was a struggle for me.  I had never wanted to live more than before.  I think Tony Rich said it best "I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me.  Like a clown I put on a show, The pain is real even if nobody knows and I'm cryin' inside and nobody knows it but me."  No matter how painful it was I told God if he let me live I wouldn't never complain.  Although I'm not able to be with the people I love the most  I know that you guys are with me in spirit. 
I will continue to smile because God has smiled on me.

There is a place in  life, That needs my humble skill, A certain job I'm meant to do, Nobody else can fill.  The hours are demanding, And the pay is not too good, And yet I wouldn't change it For a moment , if I could.

There is a special place in  life, A goal I must attain, A dream that I must follow, For I won't be back again.  There is a mark  that I must leave, However small it be, A legacy of love for those who follow after me.

There is a special place in life that only I may share, A little path that bears my name, Awaiting me somewhere.  There is a hand that I must hold, A word that I must say, A smile that I must give, for there are tears to blot away.

There  is a special place in life that I was meant to fill, A sunny spot where flowers grow upon a windy hill.
There's always a tomorrow, And the best is yet to be, And somewhere in this world I know There is a place for me!

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