I have a lot of things to tell you. You will be like my diary, where I will tell you what has been going on as far as my metaphysical status. So much has happened since I met Diane and Christy in Hawaii, my path has been endless and very resulting. I will start with the most recent then continue as the days go with the dates.

(Updated 9-9-99)  Meeting guides and working with them.
In one of my clairvoyant classes, we were guided into a meditation on meeting our guides. I have met them before, but I was interesting to learn more. I walked along a path to a cabin and asked that all of my guides to be there when I open the door. When I opened the door, it was full of people. Everywhere! So I asked everyone to leave who where not my guides. All that were left were my inner guide, Sun Flower, my Indian chief, and another man that was blurry, and I little girl about 5/6 years old with long curly, black hair. I have never seen her before. She sat on my lap and told me that she was the one who always played with my hair. Then she jumped off my lap and ran off.
After my meeting with my guides, I started walking back up my path. There was a young man dressed in black, long black jacket and black hat. I told him that he was not welcome in my sacred space and that he was there uninvited. He lifted his head, just enough to see his mouth and he said " Just as they are here to guide you, I am here to make your life more difficult." I did not feel fear toward him, but I did have to honor and respect him that he was very powerful to be in my space, uninvited. I asked him to please leave and get off my path and let me pass. He bowed and tipped his hat and stepped off my path.

 (This is a true story.)  I was doing a stress release with my instructor and I went back to the time I was 5/6 years old. I was trapped in a sleeping bag and some how I had gotten turned around. I couldn't see anything when I opened my eyes and it was very stuffy and I could breath. I am not sure as to what really happened but I know that by the time I was let out, my fingertips were bloody. I guess I was so scared that I tried to claw my way out of the sleeping bag. The was a tree branch that had fallen on the tent, pinning me down. I never cried or screamed. My parents must have thought I was dead. At that moment, at the tender age of 5/6 I made the decision that my parents nor anyone else could protect me and that I was alone and only I could depend on myself. Wow, what a heavy responsibility for such a young age. I started shaking and my instructor told me to send someone to her that could comfort her. Someone to let her know that parents do their best to care for us, but they are also human, and that they are not perfect. At first, I sent me, as I am now with my knowledge, but being as I went to her as a grown up, she would not listen to me. I tried to explain, but to no avail. I didn't know whom else to send that she would listen to. At that moment, the little Girl Guide appeared and said, " That is what I am here to do." So I thanked her and asked if she would go and comfort the scared child. I then saw a picture of my guide with little wings, reaching out to the scared child. Reaching out to me as a little girl and she listened and then handed the guide a yellow daisy. I don't know what she said but it must have worked, because the little girl listened.
I then pictured the scene in an old fashion type. Brown and white with spots of color. I sent this picture into the universe in hopes that an artist somewhere received the image as I had imagined and I also send into the universe that I will come across this painting in the future and met the artist and buy the painting. What a beautiful process.
 

(Dated 8-5-99) Hands on healing, diet and supplements.
Last November, I went have my yearly exam at the clinic. During the exam, the nurse said that she could see the Candida, that it was so much, that she could see it with the naked eye. There white clumps inside. She asked me if I wanted to be tested, both we both agreed that that was not necessary as we both knew that I have a very bad case of Candida. I have had it for eight years. She also asked if I wanted some medication. Being as that is how I got there in the first place, I told her no. I was doing a special diet program starting. The diet program consisted of only vegetables and beans and tofu. No rice, pasta, potatoes, fruits, sugar, preservatives, wheat, dairy, and no grains. In order to kill the Candida, you can not feed it, and those are the things that they feed on. I also took a lot of different supplements. I will need to continue this diet for 5 or more months. But I want this bad enough, so I will do it!
Next, I have been having a lot of pain in my lower back and kegs around my period time. The pain starts in my lower back, then progresses down to my legs. Every month, the pain got worse and the last time, I could bearly walk or stand, everything hurt. Not like my normal cramping and pain. The pain usually started on Friday and went until Thursday the following week. On Wednesday, I felt the pain starting. On Thursday, I had decided that I had had enough and that I was no longer going to have this pain. I was afraid that it might be endimetriosous. So I lay down on the bed and relaxed and did a meditation. The next thing I knew, I was inside my body. I looked around and saw white, sticky gook all over my organs and all over the inside. I realized that it was my candida. I looked up and saw my hand on my body. It was like looking at your hand through a balloon. I saw a red ray of light coming from my hand and as the red rays hit the white sticky stuff, it turned hard and crusty. Then the red changed to a yellow, white ray, and all the red crusty stuff, broke off and disintegrated into the light and went up into my hand. I have not had any pain since then! Pain free after eight months!
Two weeks later, I went back for a check up at the clinic and asked the nurse to check on my Candida to see if there was any progress. She checked under the microscope and there was no sign of the Candida! After only two months! I know realize that the healing I did, was that powerful and that it worked! With my healing, diet and supplements, I did it!
My main goal for getting healthy was so that Steve and I may have a baby. But I had to get cleaned up first. Well, it paid off!! Steve and I are 4 months pregnant and very happy! (August 30, 1999)