it''s been awhile!
Hi! Missed me? I will start updating this site by the end of this year, I promise myself that. I havent been blogging and doing any webdesign for QUITE AWHILE! I seriously need to brush up on my rusty webdesign skills. I do have an account with multiply.com at http://zuwairi.multiply.com/ but I don't get to design my own layout there. I will try to come out with a lame new layout before the year ends. Promise. This 2006 has been really "educational" so far. I think I really am living life now. All this while I was so afraid to die that I forgot to live. Now its all carpe diem! Que sera, sera! Can't wait to get back to this space!
Friday 27-Oct-2006 10:53 AM

the end...
i'm closing this site. i wont close it completely, it's just that i wont be updating it and i wont be blogging HERE anymore. i guess i should have done this long ago but in truth i wasn't ready. i was lacking in the designing skills and wasn't planning on blogging "full time". now i feel that i want to blog full time and will do so FREELY without ANY constraint! and to do that i have to move.
this website was initially made to impress me if not my friends. i was trying to prove to them and myself that i am talented in some other areas, not just academic. that i am versatile, better. i guess i was more vain. i dont need to be that stupid anymore.
this website was also the place where my alter ego speaks freely almost whatever he wants, which is something he cannot do outside and anywhere else. in this website, i am virtually fearless where in truth a hypocrite. i did not plan to offend or hurt cause i know the visitors have the choice to either come or go. i was more defending my stance rather than objurgating others.

this was my sanctuary.

now, i found solace someplace else where i can be completely me. no more hiding behind the words. no more mild hypocrisy.

just me.

so this is it. the final blog entry for the zuwairi website!® or zuwairi@geocities.com. i'll still be on the net, blogging someplace else. i'm sorry i cant just give you the url, i want privacy from anyone i know or anyone who THINK they know me. i want to start anew, i want to start in truth.
anyways, do sign the guestbook or mail me, i love it. i promise i'll respnd. thanks for visiting all this while and take care. btw, the radio is playing the calling's wherever you will go and it just seems so sad. why? goodbye

Truly,
zuwairi aka randy
Thursday 22-May-2003 5:59 PM

and the boredom lurks in
i'm bored. i waited eagerly for this holidays but now i want to get back to work. i'm not a workaholic but it's so much better to be doing something rather than er.. nothing. all i do is eat, sleep and watch tv. what a productive way to live your life. i need to get back to work. why do the students need 3 weeks of holidays dammit!? btw, i'll be coming down to KL this 30th till the 1st of June for the PC Fair at Mid Valley. cant hardly wait!
Wednesday 21-May-2003 6:17 PM

untitled
this is what i hate about posting 'titled' blog entries: i'm not creative enough to put a title for each entry. if you've been visiting this site for a while, you might notice that i used to put titles in each blog entry but then after awhile i stopped doing it coz i started to feel the 'burden' of naming each entry. now i plan to start over again and name each entry and i forsee an uncreative blogger becoming a lazy one in the future. we'll see.
anyways i am helping Vee with her layouts but they dont seem to work. i've screwed 3 layouts and i am desperate to come up with another one that actually works. i spent all day yesterday working on her site but havent yet feel satisfied with the result. ahh, the pain of havin an uncreative mind. but i'll upload her new layout once i finish it so lets hope that it's soon. so i guess that's it for today's entry. btw, can u come up with a title for this entry? how about desperately seeking title? no? i told you i'm not creative.
Monday 19-May-2003 10:36 AM

de novo
i'm back and i'm starting de novo, anew, afresh, whichever you prefer to call it. the zuwairi website!® is now zuwairi@geocities.com but it's still my site and i get to do absof**kin'lutely anythin i like. dont wori tho coz i'm not gonna do much, i'm on vacation right now so that's why i'm updating this site. my students are on a 3 week holiday so expect a longer hiatus once i get back to work in 2 weeks time. man i missed home and am sure glad to be back. life's rather dull and boring here and that's what i love about my hometown. it's very unlike the state where i work. life's all hustle and bustle there but then again maybe i'm just a lazy bummer who loves to exagerate. well, it's just so good to be back. one thing i miss very much is my pc coz all my stuff is there, mp3s, games, journals, website materials etc. tho i just bought a state of the art p4 powered 256mb 40gig laptop, it's just not as good as my old celeron powered 64mb 20gig desktop that i'm typing with right now coz the laptop doesn't have what my 'sephia' has. i guess it's true what they say, beauty is only skin deep it's what's inside that counts. which reminds me that i'm plannin on buyin an external cd-burner soon but i'm lookin for a good bargain. know any place, brand, type, dealer, stealer? maybe i'll go to the PC Fair this 30th May and find something inexpensive yet great. am i a cheapskate? okay enuff of this empty ramblings. i am just typin whatever comes to mind coz i need to post something to launch this new layout. how do you like the new lay btw? i think it's ace. do gimme ur comments. okay i guess that's about it. i'll blog again later, i hope. now, go and hug someone.
Saturday 17-May-2003 12:19 PM