November 30th, 1998.
Since I last wrote here's a brief
account of what's been happening.
I have regained some flexibility and range of motion due to therapy. I have also learned a great deal on learning to live with this pain through continued counselling.
First the therapy, I have been
on
a tertiary level program for 5 and a 1/2 months. 5 days a week of
putting
myself through pain that they would shoot a suffering animal for, as it
would be more humane. I stay as long as I can and do as much as
possible
through it all. But it seems I've reached a plateau, there is nothing
more
that the therapists feel they can do. First, we have tried a TENS
machine
(Transcutaneous Electrical Nerve Stimulator) with no great results. It
did start off giving me some varied relief, but nothing worth
mentioning
and it never lasted. Second, I seemed to become accustomed to it
quickly.
I've taken myself OFF Tylenol 3 with codeine, It was becoming obvious I
was in this for a long term and I didn't need an addiction added on to
this disease. Third, I was put on an anti-convulsant called Tegratol
which
is for nerve pain in low doses, along with the original nortriptyline
I've
been taking.
I have also been through a
psychological
assessment just recently. We believe that this assessment is to try to
discredit me and my injury, trying to get something from the doctors
saying
that my life is causing the pain and not that the pain is affecting my
life adversely. But let them play their games, I know what I feel, and
I know I have people out there that know how I feel! I saw 3 different
doctors on the assessment, a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a regular
M.D. with an interest in the disorder. The psychologist was quite
interesting
as well as informative, I probably learned as much from him as he got
from
me. The M.D. was GREAT! I thought this would be the hardest part of my
assessment as he would have to touch my arm. But I was wrong! He did as
little with my arm as he could, as he had the previous information
gained
from the other doctors. BUT, the psychiatrist was INCREDIBLY PAINFUL! I
was quite taken by surprise when he was talking about fishing with me
then
asked how far I could raise my arm, I showed him and the next thing I
knew
he was on my arm and I was in shock/incredible pain!!! My wife said I
was
pale after that, and all I can think of was it was like sticking my arm
into a bonfire! I couldn't talk, I could barely breathe! And this guy
is
saying "That doesn't hurt?", Good grief!!!! At least his manipulations
lasted only a few minutes (so my wife says), but I was shot for the
rest
of the week. I went without sleep for the next few nights. But what
choice
do I have than to subject myself to whatever torture Compensation deems
necessary? Although I may go crazy if the keep it up!
And to wrap it all up one last
thing. I will in the near future be undergoing an FCE (functional
capacity
exam or something like that) to establish my return to work
capabilities.
Well.. Wish me luck and remember me in your prayers!! And I'll keep updating!!
Thanks again,
Bob
Also a word to those of you
going
through this.. at ALL costs get a GOOD pain therapist and go to them
REGULARLY.
There are things you'll go through that you had no idea were even in
you!
As well continue on with therapy! God forbid this disease should take
hold
of you more than it already has!
Please feel free to e-mail me.
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