A Bottle of Pills



A bottle of pills lays beside me as my head lays on the table one more pill is all I need to rid these demons in my head.  I can’t go on with this life there’s nothing left for me its all gone.  My feelings are hurt and I can’t seem to dig myself out of this hole I am in.  My friends filled my head with their problems so much so I lost touch with myself.  I got lost in the dreams of tomorrow but really all I needed was to live for today. 


Now here I am half gone from this life with a bottle of pills beside me and a bad memory in my head.   Now don’t you feel pity for me no don’t you dare cause I know its not like you to really care.   All my friends blame each other and the truth is its all of you not just one of you, but hey I’m not mad at you.  You didn’t force these pills down my throat did you. 

I lay here half unconscious remembering all those fights with everyone in my life and in my mind I ask everyone for forgiveness and in my mind I get none.  I ask god why he’s let me get this far why didn’t he help me to heal the scars.  I can’t feel my arms and legs now but hey I got sick of walking in someone else’s footsteps so I guess its better this way.


I’m fading fast now there isn’t much left to say.  To anyone who really cares about me I want you to know I loved you and  I’ve been set free of my pain.  My brain is starting to hurt and I can’t feel my heart beating anymore I know it must be cause I’m still alive.   A bottle of pills lays beside me and my heart doesn’t want to beat no more for I am dead.