How can I tell

Coming back from the big place heavy on my mind
Not sure where to go from here and running out of time
I find a tree along the walk and I must sit down
Have to take a break from this or I’ll surely drown
What to say and what to do I can’t find a way
Oh, dear God please help me, to find the words to say
The rain it starts but I can’t move head still in my hands
I can’t seem to stop the tears face what life demands
How do I tell my little ones tell them what’s in store
Is there an easy way to say, mommy’s not coming home anymore

They don’t need to know the truth, at least not for a time
It’s a secret I must keep, weighing heavy on my mind
She got mad and darted out I think was mad at me
And she never saw the drunk who ended what could be
The last words she spoke to me I’ll hold forever more
With dyeing breath she spoke them, then she closed the door
Barely heard “I love you, dear” and “please tell our kids”
“Mommy loves them more than life, they must know this”
As I felt her hand go limp I thought I saw a smile
I LOVE YOU is all I said as she passed on for awhile

Now is the time to pick me up to face the task at hand
Keep a promise I just made it’s what life demands
House looms larger up ahead, as I dry my tears
I can hear them laugh inside, now to face my fears
Sitting there all quiet now they look into my soul
They know Daddy has some things that they need to know
How do I tell my little ones tell them what’s in store
Is there an easy way to say, mommy’s not coming home anymore
She was told my God to come, that He needed her
And we know we have to do what He says for sure
I tell them slowly mommy’s dead, an accident you see
And in the telling I hold them close keep them next to me
We’ll live on as we must do; but one thing you should know
Mommy loves you more than life this she told me so

Hak
15 Jan 00 / 1021
Woke from a dream….