POEM - I Can't Say

I can’t say
I use the words
I know it’s true
But deep inside
I wonder too
So many things have happened
To make me doubt myself
I wonder what’s inside of me
A heart put on a shelf
The things I used to think I knew
That I believed in oh so much
Have crashed down on the rocks below
I now shy away from just a touch
When will I know
When will I feel
I am so afraid
Afraid to feel what’s real
I doubt the rising sun
Hiding in its shadow
Skirting all the edges
When will I really know
There has to be an answer
But the question’s hard to see
When will it feel right again
To feel the very heart of me
I’m spinning in a vortex
I need a helping hand
Into this swirl I delve
Deeper than thick quicksand
I say the thing
I think I feel
I hear the words
But what is real
Silence is my only friend
Yet it cuts me to the bone
As I lie there torn and bleeding
Still searching for a home
Into arms I search for love
A shelter for the night
I wonder if I use to much
Asking if this is right
Do I ask to much of you
To let me come inside
I fear that I’m abusing you
My haven for me to hide
I know I feel
I feel it’s true
But in your arms
I feel a part of you
Don’t ask me yet
But don’t let me go
I want you now
This you should know
The door is open
I have stepped through
What lies beyond
I’m learning too
These rhymes my seem
Like just mere play
But my heart is sure
Though words I can’t say
hak
0900 / 1 Aug 99
Did you like this one? Let me know!