Thought for the day of...6-23-98...
A foolish man may live his life....but a soldier loves his.... ~~COOP~~
Thought for the day of...6-24-98...
Now see..I'm not even going to type some kull ass
cliche...see...yesterday..I got saved...and I feel
much better..I really surrendered to GOD and now I
know I will never go back to losing my faith..I always
had his salvation..and see yesterday...this man..see..he
sat down..and helped me understand...the devil was trying
to trick me into thinking the lord took his salvation
away..but he never did...now...after all my years of
living..cuz see...I'm 18 now...It took me all the close
calls to realize that GOD is the right thing....I already
know cursing is wrong..but that's one thing I'm going to
have to live with...so DAMN weed smoke.....DAMN a 40 and
the bacardi lime...I've been there..I been tore up on the
floor..or lokin' out in the back seat wit my niggaz...I
came too close to losing it all this year..almost been
shot...heard the shots go by my head...shit....I been
in a court room with no hope at all...all eyes on me...in
front of that stand...its deeper than you think...so..to
all my people out there who will read this either today
or maybe one of the tomorrow's... listen... forreal...
today's mistakes...might seem worth it...but in reality...
like our gardener's told us when we were growing up...it's
not worth it...please...follow your heart...don't just run
to GOD when you're in some shit...forreal...cuz that's when
he'll test your faith....I love y'all..listen to whut I'm
saying...and don't do those things that you know are wrong....
~~COOP~~
Back day thought - One day back in 96'
I forgot the day I wrote this but ne wayz
Last night....I found a black treasure chest....it wasn't buried in sand....paced off by foolish pirates on dusty paper marked with a big "X"....it wasn't at the bottom of the sea....it was just sitting there....above ground....on my shiny black cliff by the sea....Right under polaris....locked by rust....rust from all the tears of foolz whu sat there struggling to get it open....I was in search of nothing but happiness and a clear mind when I noticed it....Not eager to open it....I sat there looking at my horizon garnished with silhouettes of souls screaming sonotas....and triple scoops of beef ending in silence....I sat there mad at nothing....with the crave of the world....just sitting in the sand beside me....Suddenly.... an inch of pain crept into my mind....misconstruing my mental seclusion and causing me to chase what everyone else craves....I stood over the chest....looking down on it with new found eagerness in my eyes....Damn....Audacity got the best of me....U know...Cuz opening it wasn't that hard....it was closing it....and see....way too many of us get into things we can't get out....and all I can say is...that when I woke up....I had cold in my eyes....and anger in my heart....I still had intelligence in my mind....
COOP D'VILLE 97'
Thought for the day of...6-26-98...
Well...you know..there's nothing better than having good
friends...last night..me and my niggaz...my boys...my
friends for life...we all went up to Howard University
to chill wit some lady friends...and it was in good
company...we chilled all night..it wasn't about who was
going to hit or anything like that...it was a real chill
afternoon...and i came home...later on that night..and
laid down....and couldn't fall asleep...cuz I had a girl
on my mind...and it wasn't physical...the reason why was
because she didn't have a face..all she had was this
silhouette and this personality I knew I would want to
be with forever...man...if you're out there reading
this...let me know...I'm tired of relationships based on
lust...u know...where we're just seeing who can make the
other person cum better and all that nonsense....maybe I
need love like LL Cool J said...OH..and I'm not getting
soft for all my niggaz out there...I'm still me..u know...
it's just...well...I need somebody to hold onto....so...
the message...that comes from this long ass paragraph I
just wrote is....That somebody is out there...I know mines
is out there...I'm just gonna be patient and go on through
the cloud of 98'..cuz I don't know where its going to take
me...don't just bun up with anybody...get to know them
first..and let it be real...b4 the both of you get real...
aiight then... ~~Coop~~