Today has been too long. Have you ever had a day when you just literally feel like collapsing as soon as you get home? I did that today. I was changing and felt so dizzy and tired at the same time -- all I wanted to do was curl up on my bed and sleep. But I think it's too early for that. :)
I keep wondering if I'll ever meet a guy who was as nice as my previous boyfriend. I hate saying "ex-boyfriend" -- it just sounds too mean and bitter for some reason. I'm sure I will meet a great guy some day...I just wish it would be soon. But I don't think I'm ready for that just yet, after such a big break-up. I don't even know if I'm ready to date yet. I do want to get out, though, and enjoy being young. I think being a relationship made me feel like I was older than I am. I'm only 21. I should be out having fun -- going to clubs, meeting people, etc. But when I really think about it, I think I'd rather be coming home to someone who loves me...someone who I love. I've got plenty of time for that in the future, though, don't I?
I had to take a drug test today for my new job. It was interesting...I've never had to do that before. The woman at the clinic seemed quite paranoid, like I was smuggling in a cup of someone else's urine in my purse. I know that she probably has to be somewhat paranoid -- people try to do crazy things to "cheat" those tests -- but I felt I was in the military or something. Put your purse in the box and lock it. Take the key with you. Use the cup, fill it up half-way. But don't flush. "Don't flush?" I repeated, confused. She narrowed her eyes and nodded. "Don't flush," she said. I walked into the quasi-bathroom, and saw laminated signs all over it shouting "DON'T FLUSH" and "DON'T RUN WATER." I couldn't help but laugh. But it gives me a story to tell, I guess.
I'm getting tired again, sitting here. I think it's time to go. I'll write tomorrow.
