Ahhh...'tis been a while, hasn't it? For that, the few who read this type, I apologize. The past few days have been a blur of long drives to and from my new job on the opposite side of town (actually city: Detroit) and of new faces, new places, new spaces, new...what else rhymes? New cases? The hell with it. Suffice it to say that I've been a bit overwhelmed in the past few days. I've also had ups and downs...emotional ups and downs, I feel I must clarify. Feeling sort of alone. That is true.
Plus, my poor baby, my old doggie...he might have to be put to sleep. That's one thing I don't even want to think about. We've had him for 15 years, I think...since I was a child. I can't imagine not seeing his little face anymore. I'm crying just typing this. Who ever thought that one could become so emotionally invested in an animal? He is just the most adorable dog...has been such a big part of my life. He's been the one constant. When everything else is crumbling down around my feet, he's always there to make me smile. Unconditional love. Is that the only way we find such a love? From an animal? Sometimes I wonder.
In any case...he's old. And not very happy anymore. All he does is pace day and night. I feel sorry for him. I wish I knew what he was thinking. Do you ever wonder what dogs/cats think about? Besides the obvious milkbones and food....? Today I was driving home from work and happened to catch a glimpse of some random person and wondered what she was thinking. I would give anything to have the power to read the minds of people. I'm sure that power would backfire on occasion, when someone is sitting there smiling at you, but thinking at the same time, "Yeah, whatever, you asshole. Die and rot in hell. Don't you think you're so funny? Ha ha ha...bastard." But, wouldn't you want to really know what people think of you? I think it would teach you a lot about other people -- and about yourself. And especially if you had a big nasty booger hanging from your nose.
That's enough for now. Must get away from the computer.
Hope you have a lovely Labor Day Weekend if you're a US resident...if you dwell in another country...well...enjoy your weekend as well.
